twistedSISTER
TwistedSISTER is a companion blog to mamaVISION. Started in December 2007, TS was brought on board to give the community her take on living with an eating disorder, mental illness, and all the rest of emotional turmoil that goes along with this hellish disease.
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January 16, 2008 at 9:52 am
i’m nowhere near perfect and peronally i think no one is. but we all want to be that, we all want to be perfect. i have and issue with hurting myself in ways to make myself feel like i’m getting closer to being perfect. example: i don’t like my legs, i cut them once or twice as if they will go away. now i’m to a point were i’m not eatting anymore. and this is really hard for me. i have my sister to take care of, she has no one else. the help i’m getting isn’t working. i need help, what can i do?
January 17, 2008 at 6:27 am
Hi Molly,
Have you looked into speaking to someone about how you feel? Professional or otherwise?
We all need someone to talk to, someone to fall back on. I know that you may not want to do this, I hate talking about how I feel too, but I have learnt that going down that path will cause more harm than good.
I dont know about you, but I have always been “the rock” of the family, the one that is not allowed to break. But now I am in so much emotional rubbish that I cannot be that person any more. I cannot handle this and the responsibility of looking after the family. In the end babe you will do more harm than good going down the road you are on, and you will end up not being able to look after anyone or yourself.
Think about it babe and I am here to talk to if you need to chat.
TS
x
January 23, 2008 at 6:54 pm
I’ve been having some serious anxiety issues. I’ve been gorging for like two days, than just can’t bring my self to eat normally (like not eating anything) I want to scream! I was thinking about telling my mom about this, and how I may need help. But I don’t want to seem overdromatic. Am I just being over dramatic? Or what I feel so horrible sometimes.
January 24, 2008 at 4:19 am
Psycobabble,
I think you should tell your mum, nip it in the bud now before you get too far into it that you cannot do anything about it. You are not dramatic, you are being sensible (for lack f better words), you need to get help noe. Im here if you want to chat.
Let me know what happens or if you need to chat
TS
February 1, 2008 at 8:16 pm
Thanks Nats
April 2, 2008 at 10:25 pm
molly…i hate my legs to! >.<;
April 7, 2008 at 7:29 pm
pls give me some advises
April 8, 2008 at 1:34 pm
SMN,
Babe, I think every person in the world goes through something like this, everyone has thoughts about how they can change, be better, make something smaller, be nicer, more outgoing etc, the fact is you are YOU!!
The friends you have, wouldnt be your friends if you were not the way you are! Dont you see that?
I was trying to explain this to someone who I dont get along with. I was telling her that (and I quote) ” I dont care if you dont like me, because I know that I dont need to change, I dont need to change because the mates I have love me for who I am and if I were horrible or mean or a cow, I wouldnt have any of them!”
The person I said that to, now is being different with me, I think we connected on some level that kind of got got lost somewhere along the way.
If you want to lose weight (sorry not sure how much in kg weight is) then eat healthy, or little and often, apparently ( according to my doc) people snack during day on rubbish because three meals a day is not enough no matter how large or small, we need to have energy all the time!
I have gone through all the thoughts you have babe and I still get them but we need to go about it differently thats all.
If you need me im here, or you can comment on the link above.
twistedSISTER
April 8, 2008 at 7:35 pm
I AM 15 AND I AM ANOREXIC AND BULIMIC AND ITS A WAY OF LIFE DEAL WITH IT!!! IM A DANCER BUT THAT DOESNT EVEN MATTER ANYMORE TO ME THIS HAS CONSUMED ME AND IM SCARED BUT I STILL PERSIST IN THE WANT TO BE THIN. PPL SAY IM SMALL AND SKINNY BUT MY PARENTS PUSH ME TO BE GREAT AND THE BEST AND NOW I PUSH MYSELF. THEY DONT KNOW ABOUT MY “DISORDER” AND ITS OKAY. IM MOTIVATING MYSELF TO BE BEAUTIFUL. RIGHT NOW IM 5′3 inches and 107 BUT I WANT TO BE 90 lbs OR BELOW.
April 9, 2008 at 2:41 am
Patty,
Great to hear that your a dancer, what sort of dancing do you do?
Being anorexic/bulimic or suffering from any Eating Disorder is not a way of life, we are stuck in it until we feel the courage to get out. It consumes you until there is nothing left to consume!
I think your parents should know about your disorder babe, maybe they could help you be “great and the best” in a healthy way.
May I ask why you want to be that weight? What is it about being thin that means so much to you?
twistedSISTER
May 15, 2008 at 9:01 pm
um…where is the new open forum? I think mamav shut the other one down b/f I could check back in.
thanks!
June 7, 2008 at 8:55 am
Hi Kris,
The new open forum is now on twistedSISTER site until mamaV comes back.
Kist click on the link or my name and you will get there
TS
xxx
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