Self Esteem: Where does it come from?

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Former Paris model providing advice for eating disorder sufferers who aspire to be thin, follow the proana lifestyle, and lack self esteem.
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3 Responses to Self Esteem: Where does it come from?

  1. Great thoughts MamaV. I agree that now I can look back and say, on the recovery side of my ED, I have gained an entirely new outlook, confidence and improved self esteem. I honestly do not think it would be possible for me to have this outlook & renewed self confidence w/out all the crap I went through w/ my ED. A friend asked me a few months ago “Are you now at a place where you can say you are thankful for your ED?” I paused and then had to tell her “Yes. Without a doubt.” Coming out on the other side has made me a new woman with new goals, visions, and overall attitude towards life. Thanks for posting on this topic!

    • mamaV says:

      Hi Brittnie: Well, now I understand your user name! You need to spread your optimism since so many feel like they will never beat the beast.

      I am so, so happy you made it to the other side to see that the ed experience is a blessing and a curse. As time goes on, the good outweighs the bad, and its odd how one can actually feel grateful for such a think you know?

      Ok, keep on truckin’ kiddo, you have the whole world open to you, let see what you do with it. 😉

  2. Ziska says:

    It’s interesting to think about any good that’s come out of the eating disorder so far. I don’t feel like I’m even close to being at a stable place in recovery; in fact I think recovering would be an overstatement. I eat a little more and binge/purge a little less but that’s off topic. The only good I’ve found so far is it finally showed me how awful my ex-boyfriend was. What kind of man doesn’t visit his girlfriend when she’s in a longer term IP unit? Or drives her to the hospital and leaves her in triage, even though the nurse already said they have a surgical team on standby (thought my appendix was bad)? Who creates an online dating profile the day his girlfriend gets tubed and feels like the only way out is to strangle herself with it instead of being on the phone with her to reassure her? I’m so much better without him and somedays I’m even a little excited to reach a point in recovery where I can be grateful for a heavier but healthy body and enjoy having a life again. Sorry, most of that was stupid venting but I wanna reach that point and have the same outlook as you and I feel sometimes impatient to get there.


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