Comments on: Bulimia Sufferers…you have the floor.

By: Viagra Online

Viagra Online — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 19:38:59 +0000

My sister suffer bulimia and I want to help her but I don’t know how can I do for her.Brian N. Giddens

By: Sarah

Sarah — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 18:43:28 +0000

i know this is a very old blog and perhaps no one will readbut imnot too sure that is the real reason that im ‘sharing my story’.
the first time i purged,it took me a while to think it&imnoteven too sure it was definately my 1st time, but i do remember an early time. At that period in my life i was self harming and restricting probably getting about 300ccals a day, i was so young it seems so strange that my life centred around cutting and eating.I was 13 and my brother who must have been about 18 was soon to be leaving for uni, our family life has always been difficult but towards my mid teens me and my brother really startedto get on; i was upset and i cant remember why, it would be no suprise if i had just looked in the mirror, i found that very hard sometimes.but my mother is a caterer and she brought some chocolate brownie home and i ate one slice and then more and more and more, just shoving mouth full after mouthfull,ran upstaiirs and threw it up, with a lot of coughing and effort due to my inexperience, and thats when my brother walked in. 3 years later my bulimia has developed to a 3times a day habbit,but in my 3 years of depression and eatdisorders that is the one time that someone caught me, and its heartbreaking because it is perhaps then that something could have been done to stop me. like most people some days are bad and some days are really bad and others are bareable. I managed to stop my self harm after a particulalrly bad relapse which resulted in stitches, however my bulimia has increased the scars on my knuckles constant rash around my eyes swollen neck and continuous sore throat are proof of that. I hate myself and this sick cycle just makes it worse.
2) What recovery efforts have you made, and what advice do you have for other sufferers? Recovery efforts, i’ve tried but it seems to go from one addiction to the next; restricting, bulimia, vutting, drugs, alchohol. i guess i have never really made a proper effort to get help, because i dont want anyone’s help, ive been through it all with self harm, all the ‘professionals’ all the worried looks from paretns tteachers and friends. i jsut cant facce it again. ive managed to ease up on my bulimia at times, but i cling to it, its like a really old dirty cuddly toy, which you know is dusgusting but you keep because at the end of the day its yours and you know its there and it stable. thats what this is; dirty and foul and disgusting, but looking in the mirror after a session and looking down at my sick covered fingers and swolllen eyes,i know its reall its there and its mine.
3) What would you say to someone who has just started purging and is headed down the bulimia path? To someone who has just started purging; it seems pretty good right now to be sick and drop that 1lb that ypou put on by eating a few too many choclate bars, but after time it isnt something that you control its something that controls you. everytime you eat, everytime you go into a bathroom. a constant struggle every day having to see other people be round other people who arent repulsed when they look in the mirror, its then when you realise that its gone to far, adn the worst thing is it’ll be too late. If you can, stop. The thing is with purging you can try and call it a one time thing or perhaps it is, perhaps you are ttrying to lose a little bit of weigfht, but trust me the self laothing and hatred and messed up mind that comes with is just not worth anything in this world.

By: MAI

MAI — Fri, 29 May 2009 00:07:08 +0000

1) Tell us the sequence of events that lead up to the first time you purged.
The first time i purged, it was different then most. I had binge eaten like crazy in the summer, exteme dieted and was wannerexic for a month or two, and then let my self lose. I felt like a failure, i felt imperfect, i felt depressed and alone. And i felt there was no actual thing wrong with me, apart from i was slightly overweight. I wanted a problem. So i’d been shoving my finger down my throat for months before, but only gaging. No food coming up. THe first time i gagged, i can’t remember what i ate, i just remember being freaked out. thinking OMG i’m bulilmic, its the end of the world ! there were red spots all over my face, broken blood vessels, and i thought everyone would know. I remember thinking ill never do it again. But i did, and it was just routine, i’d eat dinner, jump in the shower and purge. It felt good, even if my throat was sore. even if i had spots on my face. And then i started to purge after every meal. It was such a power high. Then when on a rowing trip to tenesse, i binged like crazy, gained 5lbs in 6 days, while doing extensive rowing workouts. and the next week, our week off. PURGE FRENZY, i weighed myself before and after to make sure it was really all gone. And i found it fun. I began to like the purging more than the binging.
2) What recovery efforts have you made, and what advice do you have for other sufferers?
I had stopped cold turkey for 3 weeks, and then i got sick of binging and purged. It feels better when you dont think its hurting you. i have seen a physch about it, and i’m having a hard time not binging. it’s really either one or the other for me. i liked purging more, it felt good after. i dont’ like it anymore though. but i want it to help like it used to. Pretty much i am one going down that road soo i dont have any advice
i’m working this out as i go, i think your fucked as soon as you do it once, and like it.
3) What would you say to someone who has just started purging and is headed down the bulimia path?
Pretty much i am one going down that road soo i dont have any advice
i’m working this out as i go, i think your fucked as soon as you do it once, and like it.