I need you to explain this whole “trigger” thing to me.
Here is what I am hearing, not sure it is accurate, but here goes:
If I am proana, I am seeking to view and read materials which will trigger me to not eat, since my goal is to be thinner or anorexic. Thinspiration was born out of this idea right? Ok, this part I get.
If I have an eating disorder and I am working to recover, I am to avoid viewing and reading things which may trigger me to restrict, purge, or engage in some behavior which would be considered negative for my recovery goal.
Here’s where I get stuck issue. The world is a trigger.
Hypothetical case in point; I am sitting in the LaGuardia airport writing this post, I glance up to see the dreaded magazine stand filled with thin beauties and perfect glistening bodies. I get up, walk away from the situation, only to walk right into a huge ass billboard for some broadway show with a half naked airbrushed babe…Miss Perfect Live. Turn the corner, and there’s girls everywhere waiting for planes. I scan them up and down, they are way skinny.
I now feel like shit about myself. I head to the restroom, try to avoid the full length mirror, but can’t resist. One glance at my legs, arms, stomach -it’s over. Negative thoughts start, I’m fat. I am a loser. I am not eating today. I need to work out.
Is this a realistic reinactment of what you girls go through? How the heck are you to avoid triggers in this world? It seems impossible to me.
More over, it doesn’t seem healthy, nor realistic. I mean, you’ve got to live in this world and learn how to deal with your ED, and yourself, and all the influences in your life.
Isn’t part of therapy to learn how to survive, learn how to accept yourself, learn mantras on what to tell yourself when you start slipping?
Help me get a grip on this concept please.
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