1 Here are some new questions that have been spurred from the first round:

If you believe your eating disorder stems from a mental disease, why?

Yes, because we weren’t mentally ill we wouldn’t care about the “be thin” pressure, we’d be ourselves and we’d love our bodies

If you believe your eating disorder stems from a desire to be thin, why?

maybe, because it’s what they sell

thin = beauty
beauty = love

If you believe your eating disorder stems from both, why?

you need the mental disease to fall for the desire to be thin.

2 If you stated control is the core of your eating disorder, define control.

not mine

If you stated guilt/shame is the core of your eating disorder, define guilt/shame.

I starve when I feel like I’ve done something wrong, I feel like I need to hurt myself, even if the person forgives me, I can’t forgive myself so I starve

If you stated perfection is the core of your eating disorder, define perfection.

not mine

3 If you have not talked to your parents about your eating disorder why?

My dad won’t listen/care

My mom would have a heart attac and blame my dad or my friends

If you have talked to your parents about your eating disorder, what was the result?

I was sent to therapy once, but because I used to cut, the psychiatrist told them I had an eating disorder, but we never talked about it, my mom stopped buying magazines, but thats all

4 What would you like to see added to mamaVISION?

more surveys ;D

5 How can I help you more? (I know being more available would help, how else?)

maybe showing more that thin is not the only beautiful

6 What should we do with the donations collected from mamaVISION.com?

mmm no idea, sorry

7 What do you think about having a specific person you could call at the NEDA hotline, rather than cold calling? Would you be more likely to call?

i guess, I wouldn’t call

P.S sorry for my english, but i did my best

If you believe your eating disorder stems from a mental disease, why? uhmm… i dont know.. its hard.

If you believe your eating disorder stems from a desire to be thin, why? I never wished to be thinner, or more attractive i was a straight a student until i was 13 . then i was raped. and hid that from life for 10 months.. i gave up.. and now for 5 years.. i have been diagnosed with bulimia,, i guess i just want to be invisible.

If you believe your eating disorder stems from both, why? i dont know..

2 If you stated control is the core of your eating disorder, define control. control,, to me is taking back my virginity, my sincerity, my life.. my everything from my rapist.

If you stated guilt/shame is the core of your eating disorder, define guilt/shame. i was and still am ashamed of being raped. i’m ashamed of hiding and sleeping in the bathroom everywhere i go.. its a life i hate. and now that i am engaged.. i wish it would be just as invisible as i use to want to be.

If you stated perfection is the core of your eating disorder, define perfection. perfection. the ultimiate desire to a man.

3 If you have not talked to your parents about your eating disorder why? i hate talking to my parents about my eatiing dissorder because my brain is not quite all there anymore.. i’m about 15-20 percent under my body weight.. and i just wish .. everything was ok.. im new to this site.

If you have talked to your parents about your eating disorder, what was the result? the result ended with me in emergency rooms after emergency rooms. i was flown to mental health hospitals in louissinina and idaho. im from washington.. so im just trying to cope with this myself.

4 What would you like to see added to mamaVISION? ,,, i guess realizitation to the thought i cant have children with my soon to be husband if i keep this shit up.

5 How can I help you more? (I know being more available would help, how else?) just talking. more videos. emails.

6 What should we do with the donations collected from mamaVISION.com? make a brand of LIFE WITHOUT EATING DISSORDERS. ED. like braceletes, shirts, books, . normal human things for all sorts of women and men

7 What do you think about having a specific person you could call at the NEDA hotline, rather than cold calling? Would you be more likely to call?
i dont call. its embarresing’

8 If you are sick of answering questions, why?
because this is a hard subject. it temps me to go use. my ed.

Thinness:
On the other hand, it is somewhat about being thin. Less so, but that’s still a convenient thing to think about. Thinness is the aesthetic that goes along with the mental issues. I enjoy looking at thin people, but I have at least reached a point where I don’t think the anorexic look is sexy. I no longer hate myself, and when I stop eating, I pull myself out of it very quickly and force myself back into normalcy.

Guilt/Shame:
This was a large part of it. My guilt and shame was based on the abuse perpetrated by my mother, who I finally escaped this January. The change in me has been dramatic; I love myself, and I couldn’t have honestly said that before.

Talking to parents:
I tried to discuss it with my mom, but as she was the source of a lot of my guilt/shame/self-hatred, that didn’t go down well or help. She just got mad at me and then ignored it.

How you could help more:
I don’t know; you are already somebody I admire very much.

Sick of answering questions:
Yes, because I want to move on from the bad parts in my life. But I understand that my answers can help others.