Camp Freedom

My daughter and I are spending the week together in the northwoods of lush, green Wisconsin. Girl Scout Camp comes once a year.

I feel like I have escaped from prison.

This is my first year serving as Unit Leader, there are 16 girls in our troop, and they are hilarous. They are so free, and unpretentious. So, innocent and brave.

As I soak in their smiles, and endless questions (generally fired at me in rapid succession from every angle) I can’t help to think of all of you.

You girls are like my secret family, I feel very protective of all of you. I think about you absorbed in this obsession, so tied to it, like you are all chained to the floor, just struggling to stand up. I wish I could take each one of you with me, let you smell the warm air, feel the sun on your skin, and remember what it was like to be just a girl.

Just a girl, absorbed in the wonderment of life. A girl comfortable in her own skin.

Will any of you ever return there? I think so. I pray so. I believe you certainly can.

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I know this much. I am blessed to have found my way, and I will do all I can to help you find yours.

Love you all,

mamaV

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20 Responses to Camp Freedom

  1. PrincessAmie says:

    Hey Mama
    I wish i were there with no worries or concerns… i wish i was still innocent and pure…. gosh i wish i were there… anywhere but here… anywhere but with me.

  2. Nats says:

    Hey mamaV,

    I have my bags packed, when we leaving for this??

    Sometimes when I see who I am, I feel like a child again, I feel like I could run around and do anything I want, I am aiming to get that feeling all the time 😉

    I am ready for this trip let me know the dates he he he he

    Nats
    XXX

  3. Jane says:

    I wish I was there :o) The memories of camp still remain strong in my mind, the freedom, the warmth, the friendships, the ability just to ‘be’.

    MamaV, you have such faith in us, and that’s what’s keeping me going… knowing that someone believes that I can make it through even when I don’t know how. You are like my virtual mum lol

    Thanks for being you MamaV, hope you and your daughter have a lovely week x x x

  4. christy says:

    Sounds like fun! I grew up going to camp and was a counselor my first two years of college. There is nothing like spending quality time in the ‘great outdoors.’

    Thanks for the post and for thinking of us. I too have developed a sense of family on this blog and I thank you for that.

    I hope you are having a wonderful time with your daughter and the other troop members!

  5. Erika Froh says:

    I’m sorry to disturb your vacation, but when you come back can you please post a comment over at LiveJournal’s business community. They seem to think that allowing their proanorexia communities to stay there is ok because “it’s not illegal to aspire to be thin”.

    http://community.livejournal.com/lj_biz/241884.html?thread=12454876#t12454876

    http://community.livejournal.com/lj_biz/241884.html?thread=12609500#t12609500

    Coffeechica is the LiveJournal employee and she says she is speaking on behalf of LJ. This is so wrong.

  6. Kim says:

    You write beautifully. Your words are very touching and I too hope that we can all one day be where you are in recovery. Thanks for sharing that with us. Your daughter is very lucky and so are we. Have fun, you are missed!!

  7. Amy says:

    It sounds like you’re having a beautiful time, I too wish I could be there. Thank you for thinking of all of us, I also hope that someday I can enjoy all those things. Much love.

  8. Sarah says:

    I hope you’re having a wonderful time! Thanks for all you do. It is so important.

    xoxo

    PS I broke up with my scale on Tuesday

  9. Hagar says:

    Wow. Mamav you wrote that so well <3
    I hope you are having a really good time.
    Gosh everyone else are so right – your daughter is AMAZINGLY lucky =]
    You must be a wonderful mother =]
    I really hope you are enjoying yourself =]

    What everyone wrote here made me so jealous.
    I went to scouts camp once, when I did go I had fun but I didn’t feel connected, when I changed into my shirts I remember all the boys whispering about me and I heard one of them say “look at her thighs”. I was so little then. I was 11 years old… I wish I could have been smarter and known not to care about what they think and not to feel bad. I of course went and changed after a few moments into another pair of pants. So I really do envy you all =]

    Have fun =]
    xxx

  10. Nats says:

    HAGAR!!!!
    Hun where have you been?? I have been soooo worried, are you ok? Whats been going on???

  11. hagar says:

    get online nats!!!
    xxx
    hagar

  12. hagar says:

    i mean, only if you want to honey, hehe
    i just really miss you!

  13. iron says:

    Hey Mama,

    I wish you could for once at least think about yourself and enjoy without worrying about us
    we’ll manage, don’t worry (k)

  14. Nats says:

    MamaV,

    We are all ok here, just enjoy your time away, you will have loads of catching up to do when you get here so you might wanna enjoy the time you have away lol

    You deserve a break so have one!!

    Love always

    Nats
    XOXOXO

  15. Nathalie says:

    Sounds like a wonderful place to enjoy with your daughter. You serve as a fantastic role model for young girls and probably are an awesome leader. Need not worry about us and enjoy!!!

  16. mamavision says:

    Hi Sarah! Thanks for the kind words. Did you break up with your scale or did you literally break it and chuck it in the garbage?

    Launch the thing and say good riddance….talk about freedom!
    Great job!
    mamaV

  17. mamavision says:

    Hi Jane: You said a really insightful point about “to just be.” Our lives get so frantic and we are so wrapped up in day to day crap (myself included) that taking a trip out to the boonies helps connect to who we are.

    Sounds kind of heavy, but its true. I did so much thinking this week…about my life, priorities, health, family…you name it. There was just something about being surrounded by all these little balls of energy that took me away from it all.

    I realized too that I want to definetly be a co-leader this year with scouts (my job has not allowed me to participate beyond the field trips). I can just see how these girls needs solid role models NOW, during this time of emotional and physical development and I want to be there for them.

    I hope all is well and you are staying on track!
    Take care,
    mamaV
    XOXO

  18. Sarah J. says:

    Hey!! Someone took my name as well!!! Oh well, no biggie. At least you spell is the right way (SARAH-not sara! LOL!!)
    Whatever! I am now Sarah J.!

    Cheers to you MamaV for all your support and dedication!

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