Prayers of hope needed for Gillian

I heard from Gil today, she was able to type me this message on her mobile:

Hi, its gil. stil in icu been sedated on life support
since last wrote dr wantd 2give my body a rest. My
vitals r stil bad. My potas 2.1? I hav email access
thru mob(cell)

Needless to say, Gil needs our prayers and support. If you would like to send a message to her, please post a comment here. I will print all comments and mail them to her since she sent me her address in Scotland.

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My friend Gil.

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Gil and her beloved mother.

Love,mamaVISION

With all due respect, ProAna’s seeking some thinspiration today, please view this video.

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30 Responses to Prayers of hope needed for Gillian

  1. Melissa says:

    That video makes me cry. I truly hope that one day you can be healthy, Gil. You’ve got a powerful hold on me, I feel like I know you even though you have no idea who I am. My heart breaks for you, you are such an incredible person. Be strong! You can defeat this! I have faith in you.

  2. Melissa says:

    I hope it’s alright, but I posted a blog and a bulletin on my myspace about this. Here’s the text of it:

    Hey guys.

    As you may or may not know, I’ve been hanging off of every word that woman who calls herself “mamaVISION” (her adoring fans have shortened it to “MamaV” or just “Mama”) says. She hosts a weblog at http://www.mamavision.com about eating disorders. Lately she has been telling us about her friend Gil.

    Gil is very sick, and she needs support badly. She has had anorexia for 13 years and she is in the ICU at her local hospital. She weighs only 65 lbs and has been fed through a feeding tube for the past three years of her life. If you would like to learn more about Gil’s story, please visit this link:
    http://mamavision.com/2007/04/18/a-girl-named-gil/ Watch the video, I can almost guaruntee that you’ll cry.

    If you are still interested, read the follow-up post at:
    http://mamavision.com/2007/04/30/prayers-of-hope-needed-for-gil/

    She’s an amazing person who needs your support! Just write her a note, quick and simple, and MamaV will print it off and mail it to her. Gil is such an inspiration, I can’t imagine fighting such a terrible disease for 13 years of my life. Please show her some love.

  3. Kat says:

    My prayers are with you. I want to tell you to eat but at this point that is probably fruitless. Peace be with you. I don’t pretend to understand. Even though I don’t know you you are loved just as you are.

  4. Jane-Marie says:

    I will be keeping you in all of my prayers, Gil. You are an amazing person and Ana is cruel to the people who believe in her. You have been so strong so far, and I have faith in you… you are stronger than your eating disorder. Never forget how many people love you and care for you, even when we dont all know you first hand. Be strong and fight Gil,
    You are in my heart always,
    Jane

  5. AleANAeM says:

    Gil you have such a beautiful Soul…
    You can win this i know.

  6. Keep fighting.
    I know you may just want it all to end, but please just don’t give up.
    You’re strong.
    You can overcome this.
    Hugs.

  7. Julie says:

    Our Dearest Gil –

    “People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. ”
    – Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

    I belive in you. Know that each one of us are thinking of you and sending you positive thought and prayers to help the light in you shine.

  8. Louanne says:

    My heart hurts for you. I am a mother. Keep fighting. You are in my prayers Gil.

  9. Ballerina_gil says:

    I love you MamaV, thank you for this, thank you all for your kind words and prayers. I am doing a little better. I am waiting on word from a treatment centre which is willing to take me on and try stabalise my physical health. And help me to take the correct amount of feed i am prescribed. I am quite scared , i am worried about how other patients will deal with the fact i cannot eat orally, (i have dameaged my oesophogas as i have ruptured it twice so i will never eat ‘normally’) I do want however to be healthier, to be able to walk instead of being stuck on bedrest. To be healthy enough to maintain my weight and my vitals. I dont know for sure if i will be going as my psychiatrist is quite reluctant to apply for my funding because i quote ‘have wasted it before’ ‘what makes this time different’ this comes from someone who has me under court order for force feeding and resedential care.

    Anyway, thank you all again.

    MamaV i love ya!

    Gil xox

  10. mamavision says:

    Hi Gil! I am so happy to hear from you, and I am sure the others will be as well. You sound great and strong!

    Remember, you haven’t wasted anything. The fact that you would be told this by anyone who is caring for you is infuriating. Do your best to disregard their opinions, really they are irrelevant, because recovery is all about you.

    I love you, I miss chatting, and I am so so so so happy you posted!
    Love!
    XOXOX
    me

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  12. Nats says:

    Hiya Gil,

    I know that I dont know you but that doesn’t stop me caring about you. I am overwhelmed with the video on here but I know that it will help others by watching it. You are so strong and you are such an inspiration to us all who are suffering with ED’s.
    It fills me with deep joy to know that you want to fight and be as healthy as you can to be happy. I am also in the process of trying to figure all this out myself. I am in a clinic at the moment.
    I just wanted to tell you that you mean to the world to all of us on here and we wish you every luck and love and hugs and anything you need on your road to recovery.
    You are a special person Gil, dont give up you will BEAT IT!!!

    Love you lots

    Nats xx

  13. lisa says:

    hiya Gil
    your video nearly maked me cry , i now that i dont now you but i wish i did you seem like a lovely person . i hope you get well soon . i will come back on this site to see how you r gettin on . I wish you all the best on the future x good luck x lisa

  14. Brynne says:

    When you’re anorexic, and your whole existance is confined to the disease, it seems so beautiful and right. Of course, that’s why it’s so deadly. And of course you know that. But you are doing a truly beautiful and right thing by reaching out and sending a message to other potential victims, warning them to fight against the disease before it completely takes over. I really do wish you the best of fortune. Thank you for being so courageous and speaking out. I will always cross my fingers for you, and hope that your health is improving. Despite the physical aspect, you seem to be an incredibly strong person.

  15. kayla says:

    im sorry for this and i hope u get better. i hope we all get better, and it makes me think and i hope i get better xoxo

  16. klara says:

    hi!!!…. OMG!!! i had never seen something like this video….
    first of all….. i’m mexican, and i don’t speak lots of english… but i’ll do my best……
    Gil!! i’ll pray for you…. you can be sure i’ll do….
    i was on google looking some thinspo……. and i saw one incredible picture……
    I saw the video looking for thinspo….. and you can be sure you are my thinspo….. thanks to you i’ll quit anorexic…..
    I didn’t know that something like this was possible……..
    you can be sure that you’ve saved at least one person……… and also you can count with me….. I’ll send this video to my friends………
    you are not alone now…… i’m with you……
    congratulation for the recovered…… 65 lbs isn’t too much, but is too much better than your past weight……….. you can do it……. keep like you’ve been doing and i’m sure you’ll be much better in a while……..
    all my prays and best wishes =)

  17. Mathilda says:

    Thanky for hawing this video.
    I was around checking on internet, im from sweden so maybe my spell is not so good.
    But now you really made me want to fight my eating dissorder thanky allot, allot.
    you can do it, i will always say.
    Life is to short for diet.
    tace care.

  18. Sass1948 says:

    you’re definitely not wasting your time Gill. My thoughts are with you, Sara xxx

  19. Kim says:

    mamav, how is gil? is she okay?

  20. Pippa says:

    mamav, have you any news on gil?

    Her sister posted this message on gil’s ‘myspace’ on November 11th.

    THIS IS YVONNE, MY SISTER IS IN INTENSIVE CARE SHE GOT TAKEN IN FROM THE UNIT ON THE 27TH OF OCTOBER. SHE STOPPED BREATHING IN THE NIGHT AND HER HEART HAS STOPPED 3 TIMES SINCE AND ON FRIDAY WE WERE TOLD SHE HAS ASPIRATED (VOMITED) INTO HER LUNGS, SO THEY ARE STRUGGLING TO KEEP HER INTUBATED. SHE ISNT RESPONDING TO TREATMENT, HER HEART IS WEAK.
    I AM HEART BROKEN, I AM SICK WITH WORRY, I DO NOT HAVE INTERNET I AM ONLY USING MY FRIENDS. I WILL UPDATE WHEN I HAVE INFORMATION. IT MAY NOT BE FOR SOME TIME.
    PLEASE PRAY FOR HER, PRAYERS IS ALL THATS LEFT

    MANY THANKS
    YVONNE

  21. Pippa says:

    This bulletin was posted this morning.

    THIS IS YVONNE AGAIN THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR KIND MESSAGES. GILLIAN IS STILL WITH US BUT IS IN A DRUG INDUCED COMA IN INTENSIVE CARE SHE STIL HAS THE VENTILATOR BREATHING FOR HER AS THEY CONTINUE TO DRAIN FLUID FROM AROUND HER LUNGS. THEY CONTINUE EACH DAY TO REDUCE THE SEDATION BUT SHE IS NOT BREATHING ENOUGH ON HER OWN YET SO THEY HAVE TO PUT IT BACK UP.
    THE DOCTOR SAID SHE MAY BE AWARE THAT WE ARE THERE AS EVRYTIME WE ARE IN HER HEARTRATE GOES UP. I DONT KNOW I KEEP TALKING TO HER AND PLAYING HER FAVOURITE SONGS. CONSULTANT SAIS WE JUST HAVE TO TAKE EACH DAY AT A TIME.

    MANY THANKS AGAIN

    YVONNE

  22. Pippa says:

    Posted this morning on one of Gil’s favourite places:

    I HAVE BEEN HERE LOGGED IN FOR SOMETIME, READING, CRYING, SEARCHING FOR HOPE. ITS 3AM IN UK. I AM WAITING BY THE TELEPHONE FOR ANY CHANGE. TODAY HAS NOT BEEN A GOOD DAY. SHE IS NEEDING MORE VENTILATION AS HER OXYGEN LEVELS ARE 60% OF WHAT THEY SHOULD BE. THE DRUGS THEY ARE SEDATING HER WITH I AM TOLD COULD KILL HER BECAUSE OF HER WEAKEND BODY. THE INTENSIVE CARE CRASH TEAM WERE CALLED IN TODAY AT 6.15PM AS THEY THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO ARREST. SHE WILL NOT SURVIVE ANOTHER HEART ATTACK. I CANNOT SLEEP FOR WORRY. I DONT KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE WATCHED GILLIANS YOU TUBE VIDEO AND THE DVD OF THE TONIGHT WITH TREVOR MCDONALD PROGRAMME WE DONE IN FEBRUARY TOGETHER.

    I AM ON GILLIANS LAPTOP, IT LOGGED ME IN TO SEVERAL ACCOUNTS, AND HER MSN. I HAVE ALL HER WRITING, HER PICTURES, I HAVE SEEN MANY OF THEM. BUT I FIND MYSELF WANTING TO SEARCH FOR MORE, READ THINGS SHE HAS WROTE I NEED TO KNOW HOW TO REACH HER.

    I HAVE CRIED SO MUCH AND NOW THERE IS SILENCE, I FEEL SO ALONE. I WANT TO BE WITH HER.

    YVONNE

  23. kim says:

    Yvonne, you, Gil and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers. I lost a very dear friend to her eating disorder and I remember the moment they told me she was gone. The damage we do to our bodies, especially our hearts with our eds are lifelasting and sometimes fatal. I have enjoyed getting to know and love Gil through her videos and words. I feel very blessed to know her. Please know there are others that love her too and we are all keeping you all in our thoughts and prayers. Please take care of you too!! xxxkim

  24. a_mother says:

    Yvonne,
    My heart felt prayers go out to you and your family. I know that all of us on the site have been worried about Gil for a long time and wondering how she has been doing. She will be on our church prayer list as a friend of mine. It is a good sign that her heart rate goes up when you are there. That means she does know when you are there. I can’t even imagine the pain you are going through right now. My sister has ana too and although she does I have never been where you are…but understand the feeling of helplessness to do anything but sit ans wait til the worst part is over and pray to God that she will be ok. Please keep us informed as we have taken Gil in as a part of our family too. We love her very much and wish you and your family the sincerest blessing God could give a family. Gil and her fight for her life have touched my life deeply. My prayers go out everynight for all you girls on here. Love Ya Much! Laura

  25. Pippa says:

    Posted this morning:

    HI ITS YVONNE

    I AM SORRY I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO UPDATE AS ITS BEEN A REALLY DIFFICULT TIME THE PAST FEW WEEKS AS WHEN I LAST POSTED THINGS WERE NOT GOOD, WE WERE ADVISED BY THE ITU CONSULTANT TO LET HER GO, BUT MY GRAN WOULD NOT ALLOW IT. WE SAT BY HER BED FOR 5 DAYS JUST TALKING TO HER, PLAYING HER MUSIC.
    AFTER A WEEK SOME SLIGHT CHANGES WERE HAPPENING, HER HEART RATE STARTED GOING FAST WHENEVER WE SPOKE TO HER AND SHE WAS OPENING HER EYES EVERY COUPLE OF DAYS.
    ON MON THE DR REDUCED THE SEDATION AND SO FAR SO GOOD SHE SEEMS TO BE COPING WELL SHE IS STILL VENTILATED BUT IS BREATHING A LITTLE BY HERSELF. THE SCAN OF HER LUNGS SHOWED THE FLUID ON HER LUNGS IS A LOT LESS THAN IT WAS. AND THE DRAINS ARE DRAINING LESS.
    THE DR HAS SAID HE WILL REDUCE THE SEDATION FURTHER OVER WEEKEND AND AGIN ON MONDAY AFTER THE HEART SCAN AND ECG ALL GOING WELL.

    THEY SAID SHE WONT BE ABLE TO BREATHE ON HER OWN FOR A FEW WEEKS BUT IF THE CAN REDUCE THE SEDATION THEN SHE WILL HOPEFULLY BE ABLE TO COMMUNICATE A LITTLE.

    HER FEED HAS BEEN RUNNING SINCE CONSTANT SINCE SHE WAS ADMITTED TO ITU SO SHE IS STARTING TO PINK UP A LITTLE, GILLIAN WONT BE HAPPY AS SHE IS SWOLLEN FORM ALL THE DRUGS AND STEROIDS.

    ITS STILL EARLY DAYS BUT THINGS ARE LOOKING BETTER. MY WISH FOR XMAS TO HAVE MY BIG SISTER BACK.

    THANK YOU ALL AGAIN

    YVONNE

  26. Nats says:

    Pippa, thanks for the update babe.

    Yvonne, if you get to read this then please know that I am thinking of you, Gil and your family during this time. I hope and pray that Gillian will pull through, she has a fantastic sister in you and you are doing great!!

    Always here if you need me

    Nats
    xxxx

  27. Anon says:

    Hmm – I don’t know what to say – have known her for over 10 years – and after asking after her she’s blocked me from her site page somewhere. Because I realised that she was quite able 2 weeks ago to be commenting from her page to another about an outpatient hospital appointment. Which I found strange because I saw this similar information posted elsewhere and I wanted to see if she was ok. So I can’t really say much about her – I’m hurt and offended that she’s blocked me from a page for saying I hope she’s ok and after spending two of my birthdays at her bedside in hospital. And after all the times I’ve worried. I’m sorry to see so many people worried about someone here. I give up – I care – but you have to help yourself in the end. There is nobody that can make someone with an Ed better but the individual!

  28. Jo says:

    I am really, really sorry to be the one who has to say this, but it’s been confirmed that Gil’s “Yvonne” posts are a hoax.

    I don’t doubt she has an eating disorder, and a severe one at that- however there is no way she was in a coma 28 days ago when the messages she posted on Bebo are dated for.

    It’s on page two here-

    http://www.bebo.com/ProfileComments.jsp?MemberId=2869895049

    There is also a WhiteBoard drawing and comment.

    http://www.bebo.com/WhiteBoard.jsp?MemberId=2869895049

    Once again, so sorry to have to be the one to say this.

  29. Katrina says:

    I am anon from above, I wrote anon before because I didn’t want to upset people, when obviously there is a lot of concern about Gil’s health. I was on Gil’s bebo for years, until she blocked me from it for saying “I’m glad to see your well…”. Thats what happens after 10+ years of being a friend and caring, because I read the posts here and elsewhere about her, that claimed she was in ICU. I was rather confused. It appears she keeps two sets of friends, those back home and those here that see her as being very ill. I’ve not once seen any posts on her Bebo saying get well from her friends, or wishing her to survive coma’s etc, which you would expect from close friends? And every time I’ve been paniced by posts making her sound at deaths door on line I’ve gotten in touch with someone and found out she’s ok.

    I’ve known Gil for over 10 years, since before she ever saw a dr about her eating disorder and was admitted to hospital as a kid. I have had my doubts about the extent of a lot of the posts that I have seen on the net. I did gymnastics with Gil and have sat at her bedside on my 18th birthday and another one later on.

    Gil does have an eating disorder and has been in and out of hospital for about 10 years. And her eating disorder has been severe at times. So I can verify that it is very much the case that she has a very serious eating disorder. But she has also been very well at times and managed to go to college to study dance.However as I am studying in my final year of medicine in England and no longer in Glasgow I have had to follow some of the internet “stories” about her health, which have often left me confused, because they have not co-incided with her photos of her latest night out etc etc. Or to what other people back home have told me of her health. I am hurt and confused by her lies. I did hope for a simple answer, but it doesn’t appear to be the case. I do hope that other friends at home will be able to shed further light on the real situation of how things have been. I don’t want to think of the pain people have been through unecessarily.

    I hope that everyone is ok.
    x

  30. mania says:

    mama,
    how is gil?
    are there any validity to the comments about gil?

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