There’s a girl name Gil, who is on the brink of death at this very moment. Her blood pressure down to 70/30 as she waits for the next heart attack to hit.
She needs you to listen.
Beautiful Gil is a 24 year old woman, who sinks to 45 pounds, then back up to 65 pounds when force fed through her feeding tube. Up and down she goes, for the past 13 years.
This is 45 pounds. My dear, 7 year old daughter, tall, lanky, and light as a feather.
As I write this, I cringe to think of Gil, trapped inside her impossibly weak, skeletal body. I can not fathom how she manages to take in each breath, how blessed I am to be her friend.
Gil’s therapy consists of treating her physical illness – the shove the ole tube down the nose routine. They pump her up to a livable weight, and push her back into the world to fend for herself.
The stem of Gil’s illness is abuse. Abuse beyond words. Abuse no child should ever encounter on this earth. Imagine in your head the worst possible act someone you love could do to you, and you will understand what happened to Gil.
She has not been able to get past it, at least not yet. Her abuser left scars so deep she feels disconnected from her body. She feels shame putting things in her mouth. How does one human being damage a child’s soul to the core, and live to tell about it?
For this, Gil is an angel on earth.
I live by the rule “everything happens for a reason.” I admit Gil’s story causes me pause on this statement, but I stand by it. The things suffered in this life must happen for a greater purpose, for your own individual greater purpose, or there simply is no purpose.
Gil is with us for a reason. My prayer is that she finds that reason, and is able to find the inner strength to turn her pain, festering wounds, intolerable suffering, anger, hurt, disgust, shame, and fear into something…..anything positive.
My bet is this. Gil’s story will stay with you for a while….she may even change that way you think about yourself, your body, your purpose.
Hmmm, I guess good ole’ Gil’s is already serving a greater purpose on this earth.
God bless you my friend.
I love you,